I think it's really difficult to know what you want in your life, who you want surrounding you and when you know you've found peace in your heart.
We only get one life, and I know that sounds so over-exaggerative(?) but it's true, unless of course you believe in the after-life, which I do, but you never really remember your old self. But that's another topic for another day!
Recently I've been trying to find myself, and it's proving difficult. I feel like once you think you've found your comfort, something comes in and throws you off balance and makes you question the thoughts you were thinking before. Recently I've had a few changes in my life, just small things like a new job/opportunities and getting closer to some friends meaning losing connections with others - but all these situations have made me question how I want my life to 'turn out' in the end.
We all have a perfect scenario in our heads of how we want our lifes to end out. Wether that be with a husband, wife, 4 kids and 2 puppies and we have our eye on that goal since however young, but is it going to turn out like that? I feel like I'm not making so much sense. Something is always going to come across and throw off what your perfectly balanced life plan was off it's course and you have to deal with that and bring it with you or swerve it and go a different route with things.
Finding yourself is really important, I feel like I lost myself for a while back into old habbits. It could have almost got dangerous, but I kicked my ass into gear and sorted myself out and I'm already feeling the positive things that are coming from it. Looking after yourself is SO important, and I think we become so lost in helping everyone else that we forget WE are the most important people in our lives, no one is going to be there for you forever so to say - but YOU will be there for YOU for forever, so take time for yourself to channel your inner-self and feel what your body is telling you it needs and wants. That includes your mind and your heart alongside that.
I constantly am wanting to be a better person for myself, my friends and most importantly the world. But then I can't even tackle cleaning my room so maybe I'll hold off tackling the world for just a little while...
I don't really know where I was aiming to go with this blogpost. I feel like I have a lot of thoughts at the moment, and I haven't blogged for a while so I think this is just a whole lot of blurted words that make no sense and probably have a deeper meaning that I'm sure we can eventually get to in another blog post.
I guess all I have to say for now is... Take care of yourself. Take time out of your busy lives to do the things YOU want to do, spend time with yourself - because being around other people constantly can be an exhausting task. Sometimes we need a little TLC, a little music and a little tap on your keyboard to make ourselves feel better.
Keep Smiling,
P x
Hello my lovely people!
Today I come to you with something amazing... and something I really could have used back when i went to concerts on my own, wanted to go party and had no one to go with, or dragged my mother along to watch me cry when Justin Bieber came out on stage...
It's a nifty little FREE app called Prelinks and you can find it on the app store! It's so cool, oh my GOSH I could have used this back in the days! Basically what it is is a Tinder of the music festival world... I know right?! You know all those memes online which say "I wish there was a Tinder for friends" THIS IS IT! This is your answer! And the best thing is, you and your new friends are all joined together with the love of the same music & partying. This has the potential to make you have the most amazing summer and make so many new friends, and so many great memories.
This is the first screen you see once you've logged in with Facebook, (and they don't post on your Facebook, what a blessing!) and you scroll through a tonne of festivals, which are handily all in order of the months they are coming in! E.G Glastonbury, T in the Park etc. AND if you put in what University you go to, all the local events at the nightclubs will pop up too and you can find friends to go out with there or meet at the bar! Once you've selected the festival/event you're going to, a message pops up with the amount of people who have also said they are attending that festival and then you can swipe through them left of right to whether you think they would be a suitable friend match for your day! Once they've seen you're interested, it'll pop up on their phone and they'll be able to chat to you and then you can get to know eachother and get super excited about your festival together!!
I'm going to be honest with you, I think this is one of the best app inventions ever made, and I can't wait for it to go big and go global because I know and have seen so many people over the internet who want to go to festivals, or make a last minute decision to go to an event at a club and none of their mates can or don't want to go and then there's always one person left who doesn't really want to go to a festival or a club on their own - and now you don't have to! Prelinks is going to be a massive help within the friends community, and hey, if you end up 'like-liking' eachother from this all I guess you got a bit extra... haha!
I've downloaded this app myself, (download it here at onelink.to/gemq73) and it's so easy to use it's unbelievable. You set up your own profile, add in your University details if you want (but if you're not a student you can still use the app!), choose your photos and if you want to see Men or Women, and you're off to go! Also, the colours of this app are so lovely... and I think that's a really weird thing to like but you know when something is just so satisfying to the eye? It's always a pleasure to use something that you enjoy the look of haha!
So yeah, download it and tell me what you think!! I think it's wonderful, and I can't wait to make loads of new friends through the power of this app.
Don't forget to let me know if you use it! I'd love to know what you think, and if you have made any friends (or lovers!) through this app. Happy Prelinking!
Keep Smiling,
Paige x
*All views are of my own.
Hey everybody, I know I've not written in ages, and that's okay! I've been having a hard time but this has been on my mind for a while now.
Anyway, cut to the chase. I'm sure you can tell what this blog is going to be about from the title.
Nostalgia.
"A sentimental longing or wistful affection for a period in the past".
I'm sure you've all experienced it! It's that feeling in your heart you get when you hear that song that you and your friends would sing at 1am at a sleepover, or the smell of your favourite perfume you use to wear when you were 14, or that TV show that you were obssessed with in highschool, or that picture. Or those pictures. And that's what I'm going to write about today. Specifically, friend nostalgia.
You know when you're 15 (haha Taylor Swift), and you have that one friend that you pinky swear with every day, laugh with non-stop, and you can just look at eachother from across the room at school and you both know EXACTLY what the other one is thinking, and just laugh. Yeah, that one. That's what I'm talking about today.
Now I'm going to feel stupid writing this for some reason, I guess I'm embarrassed about how passionate I am about a former friendship who probably doesn't think of me at all nowadays! I'm a very centimental person, and when someone makes an impact in my life - I'm just never going to forget them! That's just how it is.
So I'm sure you're all familiar of the app TimeHop on your phone, which pulls up all of the embarrassing things you ever wrote and posted publicly to the internet from a year ago, to six years ago. Now six years ago for me was a very sweet time in my life, I was in school and had a great set of friends about me and I was actually in an alright place! Besides petty boy drama and all the rest that comes along with being a teenager in those days.
Now I had a bestfriend, a BEST BEST friend back then, and I could never explain how thankful I am that I met her and we were placed together in form at school because it blossomed the most beautiful friendship. When we got to know eachother, we got on like a house on fire. We were both a bit weird, and we both loved Justin Bieber, and we just fit together like the most perfect pair.
We spent every waking moment we possibly could together, she lived in a village away from me and it was quite hard to get to eachother out of school but we would spend every day in school with eachother, going to one anothers for dinner after school and sleepovers at the weekends where we would stay up until 6am doing absolutely God knows what and sleeping till 9am so we can wake up and go on with our days. Those were the days! How bittersweet it is that at that age, all we wanted to do was grow up. Drive. Drink. Be older and not have our parents telling us what to do, and get out of school because we 'hated' it that much. Little did I know that now looking back, those were the best days of my life, spending them with my bestfriend.
We took SO many photos, so many videos that I can never express the amount of time that we spent behind a camera being stupid. But I am so thankful for that now, I am so thankful for the hundreds of photos that pop up on my Facebook timehop almost every day now dating back to six years ago when we took and posted them.
Friendship nostalgia is probably one of the hardest nostalgias that someone should have to deal with. There's nothing worse than remembering all your funniest times, and it being with that person that you don't even see anymore because you've grown so far apart. Seeing all your photos everywhere and you haven't talked properly in years.
In our school, you spent the first couple of years going to class with your form so you were never split up, and that's what we were! Never split up, never fought, nothing. Then there comes one year where you split up when you're older and you all get put into seperate classes with new people, and it's a chance for you to make new friends. And thats just what happened. She made new friends, and I just kind of watched her. I mean, I had different friends - don't get me wrong, but she was bubbly and loud and popular and I was me, and quiet, and not popular. And just like that, she was gone. We drifted, and the only times we ever saw eachother was when we were at a school event and getting drunk and sloppily confessing that we missed eachother and then she was gone again. That still happens now, we get drunk and we reminise and then we drift again.
I remember one when MSN was still alive, we talked for a long while on it and I was on webcam and we were reminising and I found an old necklace she gave to me and I actually started crying because I missed our friendshp so much, and it really hurt me! Now I just look from afar and I can barely recognise who she is from what she was, she is so different, and I guess maybe from her point of view I am so different too, but I never imagined life panning out this way, to ever lose who was my 'best friend' at the time.
Growing up is so cruel to us all, looking back on all the sweet promises you make to one another when you are younger now mean nothing. Staying 'Best Friends FOREVER' never really means forever. I believe that everything happens for a reason in this world, and that people come in and out your life for reasons that you'll never know - but the time you have spent with them has taught you something in your life. If that be love, or if that be grief.
So I'll carry on seeing the photos of me and my former bestfriend, and I'll carry on feeling this nostalgia I do everytime that I see these photos, and maybe one day when we're older and things are even more different, we'll meet again and reminise on these old times that we do when we're drunk, but we won't drift, but we'll stay and we'll carry on being those 'best friends forever' that we once pinky promised at 3am round mine, eating sweets and listening to beautiful music.
Keep Smiling,
Paige.
xx
