I think it's really difficult to know what you want in your life, who you want surrounding you and when you know you've found peace in your heart.
We only get one life, and I know that sounds so over-exaggerative(?) but it's true, unless of course you believe in the after-life, which I do, but you never really remember your old self. But that's another topic for another day!
Recently I've been trying to find myself, and it's proving difficult. I feel like once you think you've found your comfort, something comes in and throws you off balance and makes you question the thoughts you were thinking before. Recently I've had a few changes in my life, just small things like a new job/opportunities and getting closer to some friends meaning losing connections with others - but all these situations have made me question how I want my life to 'turn out' in the end.
We all have a perfect scenario in our heads of how we want our lifes to end out. Wether that be with a husband, wife, 4 kids and 2 puppies and we have our eye on that goal since however young, but is it going to turn out like that? I feel like I'm not making so much sense. Something is always going to come across and throw off what your perfectly balanced life plan was off it's course and you have to deal with that and bring it with you or swerve it and go a different route with things.
Finding yourself is really important, I feel like I lost myself for a while back into old habbits. It could have almost got dangerous, but I kicked my ass into gear and sorted myself out and I'm already feeling the positive things that are coming from it. Looking after yourself is SO important, and I think we become so lost in helping everyone else that we forget WE are the most important people in our lives, no one is going to be there for you forever so to say - but YOU will be there for YOU for forever, so take time for yourself to channel your inner-self and feel what your body is telling you it needs and wants. That includes your mind and your heart alongside that.
I constantly am wanting to be a better person for myself, my friends and most importantly the world. But then I can't even tackle cleaning my room so maybe I'll hold off tackling the world for just a little while...
I don't really know where I was aiming to go with this blogpost. I feel like I have a lot of thoughts at the moment, and I haven't blogged for a while so I think this is just a whole lot of blurted words that make no sense and probably have a deeper meaning that I'm sure we can eventually get to in another blog post.
I guess all I have to say for now is... Take care of yourself. Take time out of your busy lives to do the things YOU want to do, spend time with yourself - because being around other people constantly can be an exhausting task. Sometimes we need a little TLC, a little music and a little tap on your keyboard to make ourselves feel better.
Keep Smiling,
P x
